Betrayal/Forgiveness

All that I ever wanted To understand my nightmares Possessed by my fears Betrayed by my pride Alone I wandered in the deepest dark Seeking comfort from the vanity Each time I escaped the real My soul died, died a bit more Confronting the evil within Praying for my angel to appear Agonized whisper into the emptiness Begging for salvation - salvation for this cursed mind Words without meaning Touch without feeling I do not recognize my own face Eyes that were once shining Now extinguished Left only a silent cold Sound of a tear falling down In the desperate hour of loneliness This shattered heart reaching For it's relief - the relief it cannot find Glance without affection Kiss without sensitivity Promise without comprehension Love without hope I do not remember my own tale Betrayed by my anger Betrayed by my delusions Betrayed by my lust (I wish) Strength - to be released from my demons (I desire) Wisdom - to forgive the past To forgive me