Blessing and a Curse

Spent half of my life in denial Was an ongoing trial Already sworn in, for better or worse Left in the hands of a jury Beyond the shadow of a doubt It's a blessing and a curse I never understood this target on me I didn't ask to look the way that I do Did all this bullying derive from envy? Was I guilty of it too? I wasn't dark enough to hang with those girls But I wasn't white enough to be red and blue Ooh, stuck in between me, myself and I, forced to face the truth Spent half of my life in denial Was an ongoing trial Already sworn in, for better or worse Left in the hands of a jury Beyond the shadow of a doubt It's a blessing and a curse Got old enough to know my beauty Brought me to places I could only imagine And I learned it all don't come duty free Never fall on entrapment And as much as I wish it was different I wouldn't have it any other way 'Cause it taught me how to pay attention, what a price to pay Spent half of my life in denial Was an ongoing trial Already sworn in, for better or worse Left in the hands of a jury Beyond the shadow of a doubt It's a blessing and a curse Spent half of my life in denial It's a blessing and a curse Left in the hands of a jury It's a blessing and a curse