Disfigured

Repulsion of beauty drove me to hunt A frenzy of self hate possessing me Violated their bodies, stripped of their pride Tortured and twisted until they have died Hatred inside is all I would find I despise what I see in the mirror Sadistic hateful scum I kill them but it's myself I hate Now I'll do myself too A straight razor will reshape my face First my ears then my nose Blood is gushing continue to carve Erase the face I hate Now I'm hacking at my chest A frenzy of self hate possessed me Controls my actions, controls my thoughts As I scrape away at my skin I fill my tub, with alcohol I plunge into the burning pool The pain intense, my whole body Is drenched in scalding liquid Despite my pain I am able To grab a lighter on the counter The flint ignites, the flames erupt I'm consumed in the inferno Cauterize, my skin is charred Regenerate, more loathsome than before I despise what I see in the mirror Sadistic hateful scum The abomination before my eyes A reflection of me I see an image of disfigured evil I've skinned myself alive Dripping with blood and blistered by fire The face I hate erased