Consumed In Nothing

I'm empty and cold as I realize nothings real falling into the abyss of fake dying inside rotting beneath unable to persevere consumed by nothingness drowning in my filth craving the embrace suffocate in tears tear away all that mattered dissolving uselessness erasing who I am destroying what I've built I strive so hard to reach perfection Yet I please no one My trials are useless I'm left weak Dropping, falling, losing, lost, I never will win Trapped in myself, with no illusion, to block out the horror within fear of the future, of the unknown, leaves me alone with my hate Knowing I'll never have what I need leaves me with nothing but pain