What Was I to You?

There are different kinds of loneliness And I have always been good Good at raising up the drawbridges Good at knocking on wood I could make myself invisible I could be a better liar Anything would be better Than to sit here and wonder What was I to you? Some kind of life lesson? Or something worth forgetting? Just a stray you let in? What was I to you? A stain on your perfect record? A slip, a blip, a wrong chord? I get why you had to go But the thing I really want to know Is what was I to you? I can’t claim what I gave away Keep the fire but not the flame Feel my face on your face again Hey, hey You know I’ve told you this a thousand times Except I never press ‘send’ But anything would be better Than to sit here and wonder What was I to you? Some kind of life lesson? Or something worth forgetting? Just a stray you let in? What was I to you? A scratch on your favourite record? A slip, a blip, a wrong chord? I get why you had to go But the thing I really want to know Is what was I to you? Just in case you were ever wondering what you were to me You were the biggest let-down, the one who got the power just by being so weak You wasted all my time, moved on at the speed of light I don’t know what to believe I remember everything you said That night inside our tent by the torchlight Do you remember how I made you laugh? You said, ‘I hope I die before you’ I remember walking through a forest You said that you thought we might be dreaming Then we made it to the top of a waterfall And we jumped down hand-in-hand and screaming Remember the feeling remember the feeling remember the feeling What was I to you?